spoons,, freedom, and sartre

by the drunkestauthor • 2026-09-02 08:44:20

### prelude this is it. this is the first of many on the newly revamped blog. a door into myself, a door into my life, yes thats the same thing, well . you wouldnt understand, or maybe you wuld. aside, rambling. We will get to the title very soon. Spoons, freedom, and saartre, but first we must reminiscence. first we muts full grasp what has happend to our precious blog. yes i deleted it all, yes i didnt not save bagckups, yes a am a drunk foool. all of othisese things are true,. this one is for the feds. the revamp is for hte feds, or whoeve,r , probably the feds lets be real im a fuckingi fool imma do somethin dumb eventually AHAHAH. but this new saga, chapter, evolution into my lblog is relLLUY just a way int o who i am. yasda yada yada. the drunktranny rambler <3 god bless. SHALL WE BEGIN # SPOONS as the years have past i have acquired manu a sppoons. sppoons have become somewhay of an obessssion. as i sit here 3 berrs and 2 fernets in, petting my couch on the cat high as fuck from the hirrbily rolled spliff i concocted after stumbling into my aparttment,my mind wanders to the spons. the msasive collection of spoons, be the short big, gold, silver, or ven forked, has come from several years of devious procurement has done me very very well. I have many goods ones. several favorites, even some i dont really FUCK WITH anymore. bit my thirst is beginning to know know bounds. the consumerist in me ripping me out form the inside, and now... i am shopping for spoons. i am looking in stores, i am on websites, i am in spoon forums talking and aruging abou tteh best spoons, where to buy spoons, what spoon everyone should have.  youll see as m y posts go on that i will start something amazing and juts dorop it. thats it thats ll i have to say about spoon. i needto buy obtains somemore. # freedom the very ambiguous nature of this section lends it self t o the fact that this section might be fore multiple people. it might not. it mighr be for nno one. i a mbut a drunkard and a fool. but if it is for you, which it may or may not be for, you know it is shug AHAHAHA the time is 1:15 setmber 2nd. the cards are in my hands drunk stoned have to pee other tings about me in my current situation/circumstanc plugginh in my 20%laptop because gnom told me so wow this is really a big dox about me, like i said shout out feds, youre so welcome. digressing mycat juts farted digressing we are taking a brief popcoron interlude. i wil be back a differnet person with very much the same things to say. paprika butterpopcorn aquired peeeecd chicago dog on te mind. d divagating again goodbte right? goodbye not forever maybe right good riddance. dispite the past ( instert time peroid to make it applicable to you), im on top >u< im goin, im going somewhere. never felt like the options where limitless but am slowly realizing. the time to sell everytning, hop on ( insert tranist type), and ride... just me, my knife bag , fuck you AHAHA, and my ciggies <3 but anyways. the freedom is new found, and its because of, but also me, love you, hate you so much, PinsertNamEP youwere worth the effort # SArTRE wevemade it. tying both sections previously togehter, in what wil probablt he the shortest section, due to many reasions. im bored, im drunk, im abouy to fall ver on my keeyboard. i am nauseous ihave too manychooices. i have too little anxiety or maybe i have too much? maybe i dont understand that emtion very well. what i do understND is being overwhellemed. with sppooons, lpaces to live, people i see myself with in the futere, what my life will be like in whta? even 6months? as i finish my popcorn, and rip my coworker gifted vape, my mind drifts to spoons and cigareettes. gobless <3